Farewell, lucky citrine!

I've been meaning to write this post for the longest time. I've been putting it off, telling myself that I'm too busy, hence no time to write. I've never been good in writing about my personal life, hence all you see here are reviews. Has anyone noticed?

Anyway, I'll share with you something really personal that happened to me this year.

After 5 years, I'm saying goodbye to lucky citrine.

This citrine bracelet was given to me by my Mom way back May 2009. She bought it (not for cheap) from a Chinese fortune teller. This was supposed to bring me luck, money, the works. I'm not really a superstitious person, but I accepted this gift and wore it for fun. I wouldn't call it a coincidence, but starting that same month, I kept on winning things - mostly from online contests and raffles. The prizes - big or small - mostly consisted of kikay stuff. I then thought, "Hey, this thing could be real." and the more I believed and put my faith in this lucky charm, the more I'd win. I put my trust in it so much that I didn't dare remove it for 5 years. I wore it even when I bathed, even when I slept, even when it didn't match my outfit. There was even an instance, I didn't wear it for a day, and then "bad luck" came to me almost instantly - my wallet got stolen inside the bus. What I had not realized is that I let this simple bracelet play god. I was no different from pagans who worshiped idols, because in my small way, I believed that these stones gave me blessings. (I even named my blog after it.)

Last year, the following verses from Ezekiel 13:18, 20, and 21 spoke to me about my belief:

18 This is what the Sovereign Lord says: Woe to the women who sew magic charms on all their wrists and make veils of various lengths for their heads in order to ensnare people. Will you ensnare the lives of my people but preserve your own.

20 Therefore this is what the Sovereign Lord says: I am against your magic charms with which you ensnare people like birds and I will tear them from your arms; I will set free the people that you ensnare like birds.

21 I will tear off your veils and save my people from your hands, and they will no longer fall prey to your power. Then you will know that I am the Lord.

I was convicted and guilty, but I didn't listen. Because my faith in God was weak then, I still let evil take foothold on my spirit.

Early this year, I started regularly attending small group sessions and worship services in church. I realized that if I wanted to really grow as a Christian, I could not "serve two masters" or truly put my faith in God, and still believe in this object. Last June 8, 2014, I let go of lucky citrine. I removed it and gave it back to Mom. She was appalled, asking me what had happened. I simply told her, I didn't believe in it anymore, and that I didn't need it in my life. This might not be really significant for others, but for me it means a lot. After 5 years, I'm free. I've been a slave to luck, and now I'm set free.

Now, I've decided to put my trust in God only. At 25, it's not too late. It is never too late and no one is ever too old to believe in God. I am reminded that everything I have in my life right now is from Him. Every blessing, not just material ones, are all His. I am grateful. I am thankful. Everyday is a gift from God.

 

I come before You today
And there's just one thing that I want to say
Thank You Lord
Thank You Lord

For all You've given to me
For all the blessings I can not see
Thank You Lord
Thank You Lord

With a greatful heart
With a song of praise
With an outstreched arm
I will bless Your name

Thank You Lord
I just wanna thank You Lord
Thank You Lord
I just wanna thank You Lord
Thank You Lord

I no longer believe in luck, because nothing is ever a coincidence. God is omnipresent (everywhere), omniscient (all-knowing), and omnipotent (all-powerful). He is always in control.

Instead of saying "Good luck!", I choose to say "God bless you!"

Love,

Helen 

PS. No, I'm not saying goodbye to my blog, Lucky Citrine. Writing is my passion! Whereas, lucky citrine is simply the bracelet. My friend kidded that I must change my blog to Blessed Citrine, but let's just leave my blog name to that. :)